"I'd rather live my life a slave to rules created by man by the authority of a non-existent invisible being and die and find out I wasted my life
Than live as if there isn't one and die and face this assumedly loving, forgiving Being who should certainly understand my scepticism."
That second line reminds me of how I was finally able to let go of the JW religion. I was df'ed for two years before reading "Crisis of Conscience," all the while thinking I would die at the Big A. But then it hit me: if God exists, then He is so much bigger and beyond comprehension than I've been lead to believe and He certainly understands why I can't be in this religion.
And if the JWs are His "chosen people", then I want no part of that god. I'll take whatever's coming to me, either way.